(cont.) sometime later they do figure out that kieren is 'warming up' and simon nearly cries in front of them all and maybe sue notices but she doesn't say anything and just politely 'offers' him a drink and they go up to kieren's room where they put some music on and maybe try dancing but they both stay in the embrace and forget to move and they talk and talk now that the tension has lifted and simon faces the crushing reality that kieren has the whole world at his feet and
NO SOTP THIS NOW IT’S GONNA GET SAD
(cont.) apart from some shitty comfort what does simon really have to offer? plus kieren's going to be human and so very fragile soon and how can a former radical activist such as him protect this angel and the next couple of days he's shy and twitchy and not his smooth usual self and he feels the need to talk but he doesn't really have anyone and so of course he finds himself at amy's grave but a darkhaired someone's already there and (jesus this is getting out of control)
GO TO YOUR ROOM.
However loving his parents may have seemed, he [Simon] knew that, scratch the surface, and they’d scream and run away. And here he’s confronted with a guy who is just everyting he thinks is wrong about a person, who comes back for him when the chips are down because he’s on his crew. To me, that’s a real parent, and that is an extremely beautiful thing to get to, and I think it’s very real… But the most important thing about ‘Safe’ was that relationship.
—Joss Whedon, Firefly: The Official Companion, Volume One
fuck you, Joss….